Clown

Hey, I'm Anny :) After having released my first own single in November 2024, I'm ready for something I've been wanting to do for 2 years.

I fulfilled my dream of winning The Voice of Germany (at the 6th attempt) in 2022, released a song with Calum Scott and have been working on my own music ever since. Now when I was on The Voice, I did something that altered the course of my life forever - I decided to open up about my insecurities and sang "Clown" by Emeli Sandé.

In the original, Sandé criticizes the way the music industry takes advantage of her vulnerability as an artist and views her as a clown putting on a show. I've made a similar experience in life - because I have ADHD. Specifically, I experience Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD) which causes me to be a text book people pleaser because I fear other people's judgment so much, I neglect my own needs. I feel like a clown frequently, when I play a role to make up for my perceived social incompetence. When I was on the show, I talked about this, openly, for the first time ever, and released all these feelings in my performance. I was very self-conscious about doing such a hard, emotional song by a great artist justice. But the audience & coaches' reaction was immensely positive and proved all my fears wrong. Also, the amazing support from people who feel the same blew me away and showed me I did the right thing. Although it wasn't my final performance, I believe it contributed greatly to me winning the competition.

The decision of releasing a cover of "Clown" was a matter of "when" rather than "whether" and I feel ready for it now. With this song, I want to spread awareness for neurodivergent struggles and show affected persons they're not alone. But I also want people to be able to re-live my on-stage performance in full length and studio quality, which is something I've been asked to do a lot in these past 2 years.

Since a great team of musicians worked on making this version exactly what I wanted it to be: Emotional, intimate and a sound to immerse yourself in completely; I hope it will do Emeli Sandé's song justice, yet be it's own version, sang from my perspective.

Do you feel what I feel when you listen to "Clown"? Have a go and let the feelings take over.

Much love, 

Anny